today had history and maths paper 1 . im gonna prepare to fail my history )x gah ! not interested already lahhs ! im totally no mood for anything liddat again lahhs . i also dunno whye , maybe coming that thingy already ? /: but then , got so fast mehhs ? freaking weird , whatever lahhs .
yeahhs , its like ive got tons of question to ask meanie canns ? i also dunno whye , i just somehow wanna know . maybe im losing trust for him ? maybe im just feeling insecure . hopefully , after exams everything's back to normal lahhs . it's like everything's back to square one again .
i mean , whats the problem lahhs ! everything's okay i suppose . it's just like a few weeks that we didn't see each other , having lesser and lesser time together , cause of examinations . yeahhs , i know he's a busy guy /: a super duper busy guy i suppose , and im just his attention seeker .
and instead , it's like im spending a lot more time with my other friends than with him ? yeahhs , i know i get lovesick sometimes . mengmeng can't stand me sometimes (x hahas . and thanks joojoo for going out with me for shopping , though he didnt even help me , other than just pei-ing me -.-
i won't ask a guy to go with me to shopping already , if theres guy , there must be gals for shopping ! or else , i cant get any decisions made lahhs . It's like gah ! i don't know what the hell i should do ? /: what should i actually do lahhs ? just go along with the flow ? )x what if everything turns out bad ? or maybe it's just that meanie and i just needed sometime together again . sighhh , i seriously don't know much already )x it's freaking killing me lahhs .
i know that my feelings for meanie has never changed at all , and i should stop thinking that he's going out with other girls ~.~ i mean , i don't really mind ... lols /: its kinda weird , but as long as he doesnt love that girl , im fine with it .