i can't give it up at all , all my wishful impossible hopes . even though i claimed that i do , deep inside i just don't at all . i don't wanna care if its just my one-sided love , i know it always was . but , i just can't forget about it , i can't give up at all . i don't know whats wrong . just watching anime , makes me realise it . i don't know , my heart is super pain . i wanna tell you so , but i just can't . it's already over , im happy that we're still friends and stuffs . sometimes , i would think that you left me wasn't because of another girl , it was because of ur studies & stuffs , cause you were busy . then again , i thought it would be impossible . cause you never did loved me in the first place , it was always my one-sided love . even though how much i wanted to fall in love again with a different guy so that i can just stop recalling all these , i just can't . i'm always longing for you . even though i said that i wanted to totally forget about you & stuffs . i just don't know , im really confused . why can't it just go away ? i really really want to tell you all these , but its useless , seriously it is . though all these words are words that i planned to tell you when we broke off , but i decided not to . it just sounded wrong , it destroys the pride i have , it destroys me . & im no weak woman at all , im not ! even if i am , i don't wanna be one , i dun need a man . even if its just awhile , i wanna feel it again , the feeling of being loved by the one i love . but , that can never happen , cause im twisted . im starting to lose some sense in me already . okayy , cut cut cut ! it stops here now /: today's dad bdae , & i still havent gotten any stuffs for him ! i need to tell mum to buy the cake for him , i guess i'll call her :3 i don't even think he remembers his bdae ~ hahaha ! i guess i'll make the present in the afternoon and leave it on his table . since i think i can't give him a surprise since that im going for cellgroup today :3 -nods nods- oh well , i'll blog later or so , im not feeling that all good . thanks hazeline for the welcome gift into N441 !
Call me ; though my real name is yanqin .
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