a miracle seriously just happened not too long ago ! im so seriously happy uhhs ! its as if i even think that pigs are flying around & the sky's actually falling down . Yulia actually said she'll try to go on xmas service ! a thousand yay-ness to her ~


she's actually pasting down this kinda stuffs !


PROOF !!!

a girl whom hated church so freaking much actually would try to go for just one service , i couldn't be more happy than this . >:3 & its yulia moreover ! seriously , im so super happy & being super random , joo said that perhaps he would go as well . Im not losing hope , i thought at least xuanwei was going , at least got one more person & i asked again , yulia would try & joo was gonna go . what more could i ask ? i couldn't thank God more than enough for all of these . Am i seriously on earth ?

added on 9 : 00 PM ;

i noticed how much i actually hated emo dudes , as in extremely emo kinda types . They seems super ghey , seriously they do . Just a little break up , they're crying as in its the end of the world , i mean come on , if you're gonna keep being depressed over something so worthless for 2 months , doesn't it even freaking kill you ? I could actually bang the wall a zillion times if im gonna actually do that , i girl can get over it , why can't you ? Aren't you human as well ? UGH ! D: im super pissed off okayys ! Why the freaking hell are you acting lyk a piece of worthless shit , and moreover , you're my friend !!!! UGHHHHHHH !
okay , i don't hate my friend , im just irritated about it , here i am helping you , trying to pull you up , all you do is push me away >_> it discourage me a lot you know . I'm not those kinda peepos that goes around helping peepo , encouraging them , im those whom doesn't even give a shit to anything which doesn't relate to me . Im just such a selfish human , seriously i am such type of girl . I know i am , i don't actually bother much anything that's not related , im super self-centered . It's like only me & my close friends in the world & family of course , nothing else .
I don't really care about guys , other than deon in my life at all . Deon being an exception is because , he's my childhood friend . LOL , call me biased if you want , he's close to me okayys ! I mean , he is sometimes . He's a gud guys anyways .
stop freaking pushing whoever that's actually helping you away all the time , it's freaking making me lose hope on you already . Oh well , i know its kinda indirect to you lahhs if you were to read my blog & stuffs . But it's just hard for me to tell you on msn & stuffs , hope you understand it somehow brother :P you know that i always do love & care for you . im not that self-centered girl again , i mean i ain't gonna be one , or rather i just don't wanna be one again as of yet . Till i couldn't stand this world again , then i'll just disappear and appear again . Everyone should know that im such person , including my parents . They just do (x