i seriously just don't know anything , stop forcing anything out from me . Even if you all bring me to the physiologist , nothing much is gonna change . Even if its seriously just that i have seriously got some mental problems in me . I know i do have it , i don't even mind going to work part time after school . i don't know how to talk to adults anymore , you all tend to conclude it pretty quickly , i know its normal for humans to does that , cause im always doing that as well . But , i don't wanna talk anymore , cause it's just plain useless sometimes . & you guys think whatever , its just whatever , sometimes i seriously dun wanna think anything anymore . Even if im starved to death i don't give a damn . It's almost like im almost giving up hope on most things already when i think about it . Except for my love , yes , i do love him . It's a fact , i love him . I know i really do . I don't wanna leave him so soon , i still wanna be with him and there's a lot of things that i wanna do . Even if it's gonna be a super hard life or whatever . I know it's super stupid , cause i used to think that it was anyways . Why am i actually making my own life so complicated , i've got no idea myself . The choices that i made , tend to do that to me . Okay , it's just me and my stupidity , there's nothing that i can blame , and im not blaming on anything neither am i gonna blame myself . & i totally know nothing on whatever to do already .

Just leave me alone for now .