seriously , i've got a thousands of things bottled up in my heart , there's no one in this world that i can tell about all these things , i don't know how to bring across to anyone whom dun mind listening to it . i'm scared that i'd hurt the other party whom is listening to me . sometimes , im just a lonely being in this world . yeahh , god's always with me , but i need a human to be with me as well . isn't that how humans are like ? we hate to be alone , we need to socalized .
im just fucking stupid , or silly . you know , sometimes i just seriously dunno what the hell am i doing ? i mean , i know im not the only one whom had bad days , but sometimes , you just cant help it . yeahh , you need to re-experience it again sometimes , seriously when you were stuck in ur happiness for too long , it just make u feel lyk you're just again not used to having another bad day again .
when you talk to adults , all they cared most for now is about your studies & not ur social life uhhs . & what i normally care is still my social life more than my studies , i fucking know that studies is important . what's there to actually talk to my mum about all these kinda stuffs , she'd not want to answer sometimes and just ask the studying question again ? why can't adults just happens to understand it somehow sometimes uhhs . is it that fucking hard ?
does becoming one adult makes you forget about how you were when you were a teenager ? i mean i know that when my parents were once teenagers , they were totally different from how i am now . Mum also once said that its my life that im living on , not hers , so everything's like my choice as long as you're just able to face the consquences .
Kinda true , but it isn't really that helpful , cause i suck at choosing the correct peepo to trust and stuffs . & my social skills is better , but not that gud still . Everytime , it just happens to like you seems better , then the next , you're bak to square one . & what's the problem ? it isn't you that's the problem sometimes , its the others ._. but you can't help it . & then u just have to fucking bang the wall till you faint and slp and wake up with a better mood . Or at least , that's what i normally does .

sighh , nobody fucking cares about Rii anyways , just fucking bang the wall and go to slp or just live ur no life gaming life again .